sitting on the bed, computer on your lap and sleep for nothing: as I am to "better times"! Only then, to keep me awake were the countless problems that haunted me all the time. Not that now will not have problems (who does not have them?), But things are so radically different! I spent a period in constant motion, traveling, and are practically new session: I had the opportunity to prove myself, to see places and people I wanted to "reconcile" to meet new people, to become somewhat new too.
Someone criticizes me for having done this. Will certainly have reason, from a rational point of view ... But I needed all this: so many things went right, in my head, and therefore in my life, and many other things I know for a fact that will surely place, precisely because of what I experienced. Where to get this I had to give up a few days of work and a little 'Dindi' ... Well, patience! I know it was worth it, and that's it. I can not always live my life according to what someone else might think of: by dint of acting like that, I got to a point where I did not know what I really wanted. Anyone will understand that it is not acceptable, in no way whatsoever!
I said and I repeat: I started to live for me. Taking account of those around me, sure, but looking first to my needs.
And I discovered that it is not so terrible.
There are many things that are missing, many things still to be finalized, so many things to work on: we must proceed slowly, step by step, fall and rise, getting your muscles ... I can do all this, I'm ready to do so, I have already begun to do so.
For many things may arrive late, but someone just today (actually yesterday now), I pointed out clearly that this and only this is the right time to come to this conclusion and make a change in my life as it is happening : nothing happens by accident ... Maybe in a different time from that, being come to a conclusion in itself would lead me to just not make the right choice for me ... But it is useless to keep thinking about what could happen, I need to concentrate on what is happening in terms of what will happen in the future, depending on the direction I want to give my life.
I would not be able to complicate things so much, talking or writing ... I can learn, of course. In fact, I and I learned: I do not know enough to do more.
Oh, how quiet this house, this room ... That silence is ...
now days has been done, and for a while ': I see the light through the window of my room half-closed, and it seems perfectly natural to stay here to write without having slept all night, as I did so long ago, for reasons ( as I said at the beginning of post) very different, much more disturbing.
I came back a "sleepless dawg" (as defined me when I spoke with one of my closest friends, so I hope that is reading), perfectly happy to be back. I know, do this tour de force for thirty years is not the best of life is not that a little old, but thirty years have, alas, is not as yet have twenty ... With these ten years older than I do the math. :-)
For one thing I hope to be back to the "wakeful dawg" of long ago: the desire, almost a necessity to write. Write to time, write what comes into my head, so feel free to think. How was I once.
fact, better ... Wanting. The
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